August 2012
6 posts
I’m trying to be the best that I can be. I’m trying to go above and beyond and give it my all to you down to the details. I don’t mean to sound selfish, but when I feel I’m not given as much effort as I put in, I’m so conflicted. Do I keep doing what I do in spite of that? Or am I expecting too much? Honestly, I don’t think I have the will to give less of what I...
Strive to make your significant other smile at least once a day. You’re theirs for a reason; you make them happy. So make their day.
I’ve already made time for you. I’ve always had and always will. But you.. You have to find time for me.
Is it my fault for having a high level of expectations? You could say so. There’s a reason why I do though. It’s my fault for believing in your words and promises. I’m not saying I’m losing my faith, but I’m sure as hell not expecting anything anymore. Why is this always a damn problem?
But when it comes down to no expectations? It hurts just as much.
What happened to all the little things? …
Facebook and relationships.
I’d rather not have my boyfriend’s facebook password. I trust him with all everything I got, so I don’t need to check up on him. I don’t want to be a nosy girlfriend, trying to snoop through all the messages and all of his past. As tempting as it’d be, it’s pointless. You’re just trying to find a reason to be disappointed.
July 2012
3 posts
I like to joke, tease, mess around. That’s who I am. If you can’t take a joke, that’s your problem. If you’re going to take it seriously, don’t ruin it for the other person at least.
kjeremygiron:
If I could write you a poem, I would.
If I was an artist, I’d draw you something.
If I was a musician, I’f play you a song.
If I was all of those, I’d play you a song I wrote in front of a wall with a drawing I made for you.
But in reality…Haha I suck at a lot of things.
All I could give you is my undying attention and the will to cater to you.
Enough to see that smile.
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I saw it coming, but I was just too naive to think it wouldn’t happen.
June 2012
2 posts
A scent is a special aspect of a memory.
It’s kind of weird. There comes a time in life where you miss a person or miss something that used to be in your daily routine. You’ll think about it all the time. Sometimes it becomes a weight in your mind for days, weeks, months.. You feel as though happiness is impossible. Then all of a sudden, it disappears. That weight is lifted and you didn’t even realize it.
May 2012
6 posts
I want to hear the truth only cause I care. I hope that’s not so hard to understand. One of my pet peeves is when a person is beating around the bush when explaining what’s wrong. I don’t want any of that sugar coat either. Just flat out say it. If I’m hurt, oh well. I’ll get more irritated and impatient sitting there, waiting for the truth when it’s going to be...
Musician Problems.
I can not STAND it when people arrive early for call time, yet during the time before the concert, they don’t even bother to tune with a real tuner and/or practice. We all know that we’re never ready for performances and we rarely practice at home. It shows how much dedication you put into the orchestra. Obviously, it seems as though orchestra is not a priority in life by those...
Prom 2012
Prom was a day/night to remember :) There were a few disasters here and there, but other than that it was pretty smooth sailing. I woke up, ate Cane’s for lunch, and started to get ready. I finished getting ready at Yuki’s house. It’s officially a “ritual” now xD “She’s the one..” Kevin, Jeremy, and Matt came to pick us up. Jeremy got me a corsage...
It won't hit me until the day actually comes.
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Life's pretty great right now.
Nothing to complain about, vent about, or stress about.
How long will this last?
You can’t just play with people’s feelings and emotions like that. Stop your games and come to reality for once. Do you even know what your actions do? I’m sure so. But why? Why are you portraying this mask, that.. doesn’t even fit you? You’re hurting those around and eventually, yourself. Is that what you like? To test people? To kill off your emotions? To hurt...
April 2012
12 posts
Don’t rush things. If you’re unsure of things that could work out or not, let time take its course. The answer will reveal itself when it’s ready. After all, it all happens for a reason.
Kissing
Maybe I’m a little old fashion, but I think kissing is something to experience when it’s “official.” It’s something to not rush. A kiss isn’t just a kiss, it’s something more than that. Something special shared between two. From the first kiss to the last. It’s the difference between just being friends, and being in a relationship. I’d honestly...
Exes.
When you see an ex with their new guy/girl, there will always be that question that lingers. Whether or not you’re completely over them or who broke up with whom, when I see them with their new significant other, it’s inevitable to ask what makes them so much better?
A person can do a hundred acts of kindness, but it wouldn’t be recognized at all once you’ve mess up. It’s as if all the nice things you’ve done has no matter because no one notices it. They only watch and remember your flaws.
I’m a mean person, I know that. So go talk your shit and think bad of me if you would like. Will it make you feel any better?
Take me back to the day.
When we all first met at Buffalo Wild Wings of September 29, 2011.. The beginning of what seemed like a wonderful path to a close friendship with everyone. What happened? We were all so happy.. Remember hanging out every day.. Webcamming whilst playing OMGPOP.. Breakfast clubs on days off.. Coming up with crazy traditions.. We were close like a family. I could count on each and everyone of you for...
“Sometimes we must hurt in order to grow, fail in order to know, and lose in...”
– Unknown
After being let down many times, you’re not sure whether or not you should keep trying or to give up. Trusting is definitely harder. You can’t help but to think negatively when the quote, “all good things come to an end” is proven right over and over again. Yeah, not all people are the same and situations can mean different outcomes.. But you need proof to think otherwise....
Let go.
You can’t move on if you’re still holding on to your past. If you’re stuck in memory lane, how can you make new memories? If you’re re-reading old chapters, how can you write new chapters? You’re entitled to be happy and have a bright future. You just got to let yourself.
March 2012
12 posts
Musician Problem.
When my eyes starts to get dry during the middle of the piece which leads to staring at the music, then causing them to be even more dry to the point where I lose my place and mess up.
Drumroll.
The moment before a first kiss.. those butterflies rushes in at the speed of light. You experience so many emotions all within those few seconds. Those few seconds are so nerve-racking. You’re excited, nervous, anxious, curious, happy, maybe even a little afraid right before the lips touch. It’s everything that leads up to that kiss that makes the kiss something extra. When you...
Wonderful day.
Haven’t talked about my day in awhile. Guess I’ll talk about today since it has been pretty great.
Woke up today and said bye to my dad before he left for Hong Kong. We hugged for the first time in a long time. Went to school, said hi to the group and all. US history and orchestra was same old. On the way to AP comp, Kevin and I got closer on a whole new level. haha. AP comp was...
Screw it.
I’ve given up. Sometimes you just got to leave it at that, and never look back. It wasn’t meant to be, and It’s only for the best. I don’t want to give up, cause I’m a fighter.. But you got to be worth it to fight for and over.
She was just some prize you wanted to call yours. Your mind was set on flattering, winning, and having her. Once it became official, your desire for her was gone. For her, she believed it was something special. She believed in every word you said and every thing you did. Her feelings were true from the beginning. For you? It was just a game. So please explain.. What’d you win in the long...
It would be nice to start a relationship with no obstacles for once. It seems as though whenever you start to talk to someone, something just has to make things a little more difficult. Whether it’s another person in the way or having to hide it, it’s never just easy and smooth sailing. Well, for me at least. I’ve always wondered what it’s like to talk to someone and...
Preserving.
I’ve been trying to cut back texting with you lately. Well, cause.. I simply don’t want to be used to it. I don’t want to have that routine every day of waking up, giving good morning messages and calls, and ending it with the very same. Cause in time, we both know it’ll die down and the meaning of all them, won’t be as valuable. So I do apologize, if it seems as...
Midnight talks.
Those feelings of butterflies. You don’t mind losing sleep for.. You might even just lay your phone on your face waiting for a reply, haha. These are the conversations where whatever is said, means a little more than it normally does. You’ll strive to stay awake to see how long they’ll stay up to do the same. You’ll tell them to sleep to get them to fight back to stay...
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I hate when the person that showers before you doesn’t cap the shampoo/body wash bottles all the way and water seeps through. Then when you go and shower, it comes out all watery.
February 2012
19 posts
Public singing.
I can’t sing. haha. I really dislike my voice. I notice I only sing in front of others if I’m in the car, if others are singing as well, or super-ly quiet to myself and my environment is loud. If you get me to sing to you one on one, you must be pretty damn lucky and special.. Especially if we’re on the phone. That’s just me. Idk. I’m self conscious with my voice.
Getting over a person.
The first thing I do is return all the shit they’ve given me. Every. Little. Thing. I don’t want anything in my room that has your name on it. I pack everything up in a shopping bag and give it to you as soon as possible. Whether it’s at school or at your house, it’ll be returned. That part is easy cause I usually do it when I’m mad.
Next, I delete our pictures....
Affectionate parents.
I wonder what it’s like to have parents who show affection in front of their kids. My parents have been married for 26 years, and I have yet to see them kiss, hold hands, hug, sleep in the same bed (besides in a hotel), or anything. The closest gesture I’ve seen is my mom linking her arm around my dad’s arm whenever we’re in a crowded place. They love each other though, or...
raycecarphotography asked: You're gay. Stfu.
That day.
I can close my eyes and I can still remember that day.. the day that made me the person I am today. It still sends me chills like I received it as brand new information. When I think back to that day, it’s like I can replay it in full detail of what had happened.. over and over again. Every step, every word, every breath taken.. You don’t want to look back, but you always will. You...
I feel like my posts are getting repetitive, but whatever. I just need to vent. I have so many thoughts in my head and I can’t write them out in an organized manor for once. I guess I’ll write it as it comes to mind. So yeah, you like me.. Do I feel the same way? Honestly.. I think I do.. You make me so damn happy. You’re wonderful and perfect in so many ways. I gave you that...
hoyjoanniee asked: YOU ARE SO PRETTY.
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Dream guy.
I feel like guys are always posting about their dream girls. I rarely ever see a dream guy posts. But when I do, they usually get comments like, “good luck” or “no wonder why you’re single.” eh. I’m just writing this for fun. So here it goes.. Other than the usual things like smart, funny, caring, honest, talkative, etc.. This is my list:
- Understanding and...
