February 2012
19 posts
Public singing.
I can’t sing. haha. I really dislike my voice. I notice I only sing in front of others if I’m in the car, if others are singing as well, or super-ly quiet to myself and my environment is loud. If you get me to sing to you one on one, you must be pretty damn lucky and special.. Especially if we’re on the phone. That’s just me. Idk. I’m self conscious with my voice.
Getting over a person.
The first thing I do is return all the shit they’ve given me. Every. Little. Thing. I don’t want anything in my room that has your name on it. I pack everything up in a shopping bag and give it to you as soon as possible. Whether it’s at school or at your house, it’ll be returned. That part is easy cause I usually do it when I’m mad.
Next, I delete our pictures....
Affectionate parents.
I wonder what it’s like to have parents who show affection in front of their kids. My parents have been married for 26 years, and I have yet to see them kiss, hold hands, hug, sleep in the same bed (besides in a hotel), or anything. The closest gesture I’ve seen is my mom linking her arm around my dad’s arm whenever we’re in a crowded place. They love each other though, or...
raycecarphotography asked: You're gay. Stfu.
That day.
I can close my eyes and I can still remember that day.. the day that made me the person I am today. It still sends me chills like I received it as brand new information. When I think back to that day, it’s like I can replay it in full detail of what had happened.. over and over again. Every step, every word, every breath taken.. You don’t want to look back, but you always will. You...
I feel like my posts are getting repetitive, but whatever. I just need to vent. I have so many thoughts in my head and I can’t write them out in an organized manor for once. I guess I’ll write it as it comes to mind. So yeah, you like me.. Do I feel the same way? Honestly.. I think I do.. You make me so damn happy. You’re wonderful and perfect in so many ways. I gave you that...
hoyjoanniee asked: YOU ARE SO PRETTY.
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Dream guy.
I feel like guys are always posting about their dream girls. I rarely ever see a dream guy posts. But when I do, they usually get comments like, “good luck” or “no wonder why you’re single.” eh. I’m just writing this for fun. So here it goes.. Other than the usual things like smart, funny, caring, honest, talkative, etc.. This is my list:
- Understanding and...
My insecurities.
Within the past few years I’ve became a more confident person. Especially this year, I’ve been pretty positive and proud with myself. I still have my insecurities though. I’m insecure about quite a few things. I don’t like my voice and my laugh. It sounds annoying to me. haha. I can annoy myself with my own voice. The way I talk just doesn’t feel right to...
I can't believe it..
Poof.. You’re gone. You moved away. Just like that. In the blink of an eye, you’re not here anymore. I’m at a loss of words. Will I ever see you again? You’re going to answer yes, I know, but lets face it.. We both know the real answer.. I’ve been missing you so much lately, and now, I feel like you’re completely out of my life. I feel like you’ve passed...
hoyjoanniee asked: Hey, we don't talk, & barely make eye contact & rarely ever see each other, but I think you're beautiful. You have one of the most amazing personalities & you deserve to be happy. Trully happy, not faking it. Your smile is cute :) I hope a genuine smile comes your way.
First crush.
Haha. I remember my first “crush” like it was yesterday. His name was Aaron. It was that cliche where we were best friends the second we met in Kindergarten. We did everything together. Or what seemed like everything at the time. I remember our first “date.” We went to eat at a Mexican restaurant and we shared chicken fingers xD I remember going over to your house to play...
Anonymous asked: I want to fuck you so bad.. -_____- <3
I'm not strong.
I’m exhausted and stressed. I’m so damn tired of this mask that I have to pull. I hate having to act happy when I’m not even close to it. They all tell me I’m strong, when in reality, I just want to collapse. I want to cry. I want to cry until I can’t cry anymore. I want to be one of those emotional annoying wrecks. I want to be one of those lame girls who’s depressed about everything. Who tweets...
Pretty awesome day today :)
School was an easy day. Zoology, we dissected an earthworm. Student aide, I got to go around classes to take photos. Precal, we finished early and I went to second lunch. Psychology, we just did the same ol’. After school, Lauren was nice to take me to In N Out so I could get food for zero hour. I stayed a little longer for zero hour this time >.< I had to...
