It's all about perspective.

When my eyes starts to get dry during the middle of the piece which leads to staring at the music, then causing them to be even more dry to the point where I lose my place and mess up.

The moment before a first kiss.. those butterflies rushes in at the speed of light. You experience so many emotions all within those few seconds. Those few seconds are so nerve-racking. You’re excited, nervous, anxious, curious, happy, maybe even a little afraid right before the lips touch. It’s everything that leads up to that kiss that makes the kiss something extra. When you remember the first kiss with that special someone, you’ll always remember the climax more clearly compared to the exact moment of when it happens. “It’s about the journey, not the destination.”

Haven’t talked about my day in awhile. Guess I’ll talk about today since it has been pretty great. 

Woke up today and said bye to my dad before he left for Hong Kong. We hugged for the first time in a long time. Went to school, said hi to the group and all. US history and orchestra was same old. On the way to AP comp, Kevin and I got closer on a whole new level. haha. AP comp was awesome cause I got a 9 on the synthesis essay :) Lunch was hilarious. “Loquacious.” xD Yearbook started off eh, but then Ms. Keen-Walsh told me I’m going to be the photo editor next year. Pretty excited! After school, I wanted to nap in Jeremy’s car, but then Jeremy came along. We went to Circle K and then back to the school. Just hung there as we waited for Paulo and Kevin. We went back to Circle K and then went to Kevin’s house for a bit. We saw his brother and Rachel. Then we went to Walmart where we got breakfast foods and then chilled at my place. It was fun! Played some good music on blast and cooked the usual foods + asian pancakes ^-^ Oh! I got Kevin hooked on my apple juice now xD Of course Keremy and I were the chefs. Haha. He dropped my pan on the floor cause bacon oil splattered on him. lol. The guys helped clean up and whatnot. Then I finally unveiled my room to them. We just all hung and watched Despicable ME :D Haven’t had a great day like this in awhile. 

I’ve given up. Sometimes you just got to leave it at that, and never look back. It wasn’t meant to be, and It’s only for the best. I don’t want to give up, cause I’m a fighter.. But you got to be worth it to fight for and over. 

She was just some prize you wanted to call yours. Your mind was set on flattering, winning, and having her. Once it became official, your desire for her was gone. For her, she believed it was something special. She believed in every word you said and every thing you did. Her feelings were true from the beginning. For you? It was just a game. So please explain.. What’d you win in the long run?

But in the end, she’ll put the blame on herself. She was stupid to trust you after all. 

It would be nice to start a relationship with no obstacles for once. It seems as though whenever you start to talk to someone, something just has to make things a little more difficult. Whether it’s another person in the way or having to hide it, it’s never just easy and smooth sailing. Well, for me at least. I’ve always wondered what it’s like to talk to someone and gradually bond with them into a relationship without troubles. Wouldn’t that be ”perfect?” 

I’ve been trying to cut back texting with you lately. Well, cause.. I simply don’t want to be used to it. I don’t want to have that routine every day of waking up, giving good morning messages and calls, and ending it with the very same. Cause in time, we both know it’ll die down and the meaning of all them, won’t be as valuable. So I do apologize, if it seems as though I’m not giving it my all when we’re conversing. In reality, you don’t know how bad I want to respond. 

Those feelings of butterflies. You don’t mind losing sleep for.. You might even just lay your phone on your face waiting for a reply, haha. These are the conversations where whatever is said, means a little more than it normally does. You’ll strive to stay awake to see how long they’ll stay up to do the same. You’ll tell them to sleep to get them to fight back to stay awake. Something about these talks, can make a horrible day, turn better. 

I hate when the person that showers before you doesn’t cap the shampoo/body wash bottles all the way and water seeps through. Then when you go and shower, it comes out all watery.