It's all about perspective.

I want to hear the truth only cause I care. I hope that’s not so hard to understand. One of my pet peeves is when a person is beating around the bush when explaining what’s wrong. I don’t want any of that sugar coat either. Just flat out say it. If I’m hurt, oh well. I’ll get more irritated and impatient sitting there, waiting for the truth when it’s going to be spat out eventually. 

I can not STAND it when people arrive early for call time, yet during the time before the concert, they don’t even bother to tune with a real tuner and/or practice. We all know that we’re never ready for performances and we rarely practice at home. It shows how much dedication you put into the orchestra. Obviously, it seems as though orchestra is not a priority in life by those actions. If that’s the case, get out.

Prom was a day/night to remember :) There were a few disasters here and there, but other than that it was pretty smooth sailing. I woke up, ate Cane’s for lunch, and started to get ready. I finished getting ready at Yuki’s house. It’s officially a “ritual” now xD “She’s the one..” Kevin, Jeremy, and Matt came to pick us up. Jeremy got me a corsage with white roses and red ribbon. He also got me roses ^-^ <3 Took some pictures, then off to Prom. We made a pit stop for safety pins, water, and hairspray. We arrived at Palazzo and took some pictures. We took pictures at Venetian as well. Thanks again, Robert. I WILL somehow send that money to you T_T He was a great photographer, especially having to photograph around 30 people, more or less. At six thirty, the party bus picked us up and we arrived at the Grove. LOL. Rylan gave a dance for Jose that earned him $20 xD The hour and a half that we were there went by fast at prom.. But I still had fun :) Just sucked though cause my ankles tensed up for some reason, so I had to sit out for a little.  Jeremy was a gentleman, as always. Michael was Michelle’s personal Chippendale xD There was a party where Jeremy and I went outside and laid in the grass. That was fun :) The two party busses picked us up at 9:15. On the way it was crazy! haha. It was more more fun on the bus than prom, dancing wise. Anya and I…. uhhh.. LOL. Anyways, we went to.. Caesars and ate at Cheesecake Factory. I told the server that it was Jose’s birthday so a free ice cream would be brought out for him. After dinner, Kevin, Yuki, Jeremy and I walked to Serendipity’s. There was an asshole that kept looking back, but Jeremy handled it very well with him. So we slowly trotted back to Palazzo. Yuki said, “those shoes do justice to your legs, but I didn’t say your feet” xD Got back to the car, dropped off Yuki, Kevin, and then Jeremy dropped me off. Came home around 2:30? 3? Something like that. Took a shower, and off to the airport to drop off Michelle. I crashed when I got home. 

Nothing to complain about, vent about, or stress about.

How long will this last? 

You can’t just play with people’s feelings and emotions like that. Stop your games and come to reality for once. Do you even know what your actions do? I’m sure so. But why? Why are you portraying this mask, that.. doesn’t even fit you? You’re hurting those around and eventually, yourself. Is that what you like? To test people? To kill off your emotions? To hurt yourself? To hurt others? To push others buttons for your enjoyment? To create this character and push away friends that have been with you for.. how long? Why do they deserve it? They don’t. You don’t notice the effort they try to give.. But each time, it’s a slap in the face you give them. But they don’t give up. They care.. From what you do, are you saying that you’ve stopped caring about them? If that’s the case.. speak up now. Time is of the essence and we can’t keep chasing butterflies with our hands forever.