When we all first met at Buffalo Wild Wings of September 29, 2011.. The beginning of what seemed like a wonderful path to a close friendship with everyone. What happened? We were all so happy.. Remember hanging out every day.. Webcamming whilst playing OMGPOP.. Breakfast clubs on days off.. Coming up with crazy traditions.. We were close like a family. I could count on each and everyone of you for anything and everything. Everyone was included. We had inside jokes and adventures that made us all laugh ‘till we cried. Am I the only one to miss that? Am I the only one feeling as though there’s segregation for dumb reasons? Am I the only one to care? Or am I just getting butt hurt too easily and taking things to heart more? We’ve all noticed that the group has changed. I’m not trying to point fingers. We’ve all contributed to this change, even myself. But if we’ve all taken notice of this, why aren’t we taking the initiative to piece things back together? If you’re going to miss something, don’t just sit there and not even try.. For sure, I know things can’t go back to the way it used to be. I’d be naive to believe so. This could just be a rough patch. An obstacle. But it doesn’t mean it could last forever. I’m used to that saying, “all good things come to an end..” But do you guys really want it to “end” this way? I know I’d regret it. For most of you guys, it’s your senior year. This should be the time to take every moment and make it the best before you step out into the real world. There should be more laughter, pictures, smiles, and the feeling of closeness. Now? We’ve all drifted apart.. I can’t force you guys to try to include everyone. I can’t force you guys to put on happy face masks around those you can’t. I can’t force you guys to do anything.. But what I wish is to be apart of that family again.
After being let down many times, you’re not sure whether or not you should keep trying or to give up. Trusting is definitely harder. You can’t help but to think negatively when the quote, “all good things come to an end” is proven right over and over again. Yeah, not all people are the same and situations can mean different outcomes.. But you need proof to think otherwise. You just don’t want to be hurt again, is all.
You can’t move on if you’re still holding on to your past. If you’re stuck in memory lane, how can you make new memories? If you’re re-reading old chapters, how can you write new chapters? You’re entitled to be happy and have a bright future. You just got to let yourself.
Spring break so far has been great :) On Saturday, I went to the mall with the guys. Yuki couldn’t go last minute. Sad face. But we still made the best of it :3 We walked the strip. We visited my sister at work, Planet Hollywood, M&M factory, Coca-cola factory, and NYNY. I beat Jeremy at Ms. Pac Man again ^-^ Haha. On our way back to Cosmo, Kevin went HOY-Yah xD Michelle took us to Gold Coast. While my mom and sister had their own dinner, I treated the guys to hot pot at Noodle Exchange. Afterwards, we webcammed with the others at the ice cream shot through Paulo’s phone :P On the way home, Michelle took us to get some boba ^-^ On Sunday, it was last minute plans at Yuki’s :D Got to chill with Lynn, Kevin, Lauren, Matt, Jose, and Paulo. Lauren was nice to take us to Smith’s to get ingredients for deep fried Oreos :D Yuki and I apparently did a great job since Lauren and Matt had like twenty xD “Let the fiber kick in” :P lolol. Man, Yuki makes great wings. haha. Yeah, just a chill day. Monday, I hung with Jeremy and I got asked to prom. So, I get to the car and there was bouquet of roses on the seat and an index card. Long story short, there were three words that I was supposed to know. “First one’s on the house: You.” When we went to get boba, the back of his shirt said, “Me.” The last one was in his trunk. When I opened his trunk there was a bunch of balloons and I was told to pop the red one :P Haha. He thought it through cause I said, “how am I supposed to pop the balloons?!” And he handed me a toothpick xD So when I popped the red balloon, it said, “prom?: Yes, yes, or.. yes?” :P I didn’t say yes though.. I said, of course. haha. Yes. Twist. Just chilled for the rest of the day. Today, was a special day. It’s my mom’s birthday, my dad’s home coming, and Jeremy’s birthday :D At midnight, I dropped by Keremy’s to drop off his present and be the first to say Happy Birthday! Yes. Later today, we picked up my dad from the airport ^-^ It’s been forever! For a birthday dinner for my mom, we ate at Smith & Wollensky :D
When my eyes starts to get dry during the middle of the piece which leads to staring at the music, then causing them to be even more dry to the point where I lose my place and mess up.
The moment before a first kiss.. those butterflies rushes in at the speed of light. You experience so many emotions all within those few seconds. Those few seconds are so nerve-racking. You’re excited, nervous, anxious, curious, happy, maybe even a little afraid right before the lips touch. It’s everything that leads up to that kiss that makes the kiss something extra. When you remember the first kiss with that special someone, you’ll always remember the climax more clearly compared to the exact moment of when it happens. “It’s about the journey, not the destination.”
Haven’t talked about my day in awhile. Guess I’ll talk about today since it has been pretty great.
Woke up today and said bye to my dad before he left for Hong Kong. We hugged for the first time in a long time. Went to school, said hi to the group and all. US history and orchestra was same old. On the way to AP comp, Kevin and I got closer on a whole new level. haha. AP comp was awesome cause I got a 9 on the synthesis essay :) Lunch was hilarious. “Loquacious.” xD Yearbook started off eh, but then Ms. Keen-Walsh told me I’m going to be the photo editor next year. Pretty excited! After school, I wanted to nap in Jeremy’s car, but then Jeremy came along. We went to Circle K and then back to the school. Just hung there as we waited for Paulo and Kevin. We went back to Circle K and then went to Kevin’s house for a bit. We saw his brother and Rachel. Then we went to Walmart where we got breakfast foods and then chilled at my place. It was fun! Played some good music on blast and cooked the usual foods + asian pancakes ^-^ Oh! I got Kevin hooked on my apple juice now xD Of course Keremy and I were the chefs. Haha. He dropped my pan on the floor cause bacon oil splattered on him. lol. The guys helped clean up and whatnot. Then I finally unveiled my room to them. We just all hung and watched Despicable ME :D Haven’t had a great day like this in awhile.